What have I gotten myself into. I feel like a failure and I can't accomplish this. I went to through the garbage to the dumpster and on the way back I stopped at the soda machine in my apt complex. I had a stressful morning trying to clean the apt from all the chaos of the toys from Christmas. So I was tired and had a headache and so I got me a dr pepper. I regret it now. Maybe I need to take all the change from my wallet and put it in the kids piggy banks so that I won't have any change on me. I have drank one bottle of water so that was a step.